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Original Writing/ Poetry |
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By Aimee |
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email:
AIMEENDREW@aol.com |
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Cameron |
He runs, he walks, he laughs, he cries
My heart just melts when I look in his eyes
His innocence leaves me completely astounded
His love and honesty always keep me grounded
He is the *angel* God sent me from heaven above
Before him I didn't realize my heart could feel such love
In times of anguish and desperation
He alone can be my salvation
He molds me and shapes me, as I do him
He's taught me to feel things I didn't know I had within
When he smiles he lights up the darkness in my heart
When he cries I feel completely torn apart
It's hard to explain all the hope and the joy
I get from something so precious, my little boy.
Dedicated to my one true *love* Cameron Drew |
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Lost Souls |
Two lost souls
Ships passing in the night
Our love's grown cold
It's lost it's light
We muddle through
Day after day
Trying anything new
To find our way
Find our way back
To what we once were
Neither losing track
Our love was once pure
Can we find it
Mend whats broke
Make our hearts fit
Abolish this joke
This joke of a life
That we are living in
Man and wife
No happiness within
Our Hearts, Our Minds
Our Bodies, Our Souls
This sadness defines
It seems to just flow
Flow through our veins
Forever leaving us
Wallowing in shame... |
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Tiny Miracles |
They are tiny miracle's
Created by God's hand
They are purer than the ocean
They are softer than the sand
They are whirls of endless motion
They are full of love and complete devotion
They are brighter than the sunshine
They are sweeter than any rose
They are heartier than the finest wine
They have an aura that simply glows
They have a smile brighter than the stars
They love you for exactly what you are
They never hold a grudge
They simply do not judge
They lovingly forsake all our sins
They make us feel young again
They are a miracle that we've been given
They are our children... |
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Pleasure |
A Welding of lips
A feather light touch
A twirl of hips
This heat is too much
A ragged moan
Escapes from our lips
Like a cyclone
Hearts wildly trip
Finger tips dance
Along heated flesh
Lost in a trance
Our bodies mesh
His Tongue gently flicks
Caressing my breast
He sucks and he licks
All over my chest
It's an erotic dance
This dance that we're in
It's not old fashioned romance
Or even sin
We only seek pleasure
No soft gentle words
Or feelings to treasure
We are not love birds
Or even friends
It's sex that we covet
This need transcends
There's nothing above it
I'm not being weak
This isn't a ploy
The longing is deep
I need this joy
I want to feel the mystique
Revel in the flare
It may sound cheap
But I don't care
He'll take me to the peak
Of the highest mountain
I'll scream out his name
As I gush like a fountain
So as you sit back
And try to critique
Find ways to attack
The mere pleasure I seek
I'll be in bed
Getting it on
With my legs gently spread
My inhibitions gone... |
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Life Almost
Lost |
He entered this world
With a resounding cry
But it all went wrong
In the blink of an eye
His breathing was shallow
His little lungs couldn't take
I watched broken and hollow
As he fought to make it
It all happened so fast, a flurry of motion
It left me raw
Void of emotion
I prayed to the Lord
To the heavens above
Anyone who would listen
To my cries of love
Don't take him
Oh God PLEASE
Don't take him
I need him, can't you see
Let him live another day
To walk, to run
To laugh, to play
Lord, this is my cross to bear
Not his, Never his
I'll do anything I swear
He fought so hard
Day and Night
Never once giving up his plight
I sat vigil by his tiny bed
Unable to touch
Or rub his head
The pain was immense, it hurt so much
But my baby boy fought
He refused to give up
I will never forget the lessons he taught
They are forever stamped in my mind
Life is a precious and wonderful gift
Don't waste it, not one moment in time
** I dedicate this one to my baby boy....my source of life,
my heart, my soul, my everything...you beat the odds baby
and mommy thanks God everyday that you are such a fighter ** |
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Used |
It's a lonely existence
This life of mine
And no matter how I try
I can't turn back time
I let you use me
Take what you wanted
Completely abuse me
I didn't stop you
I let it happen
And I sat stone cold
Through your heartless laughing
You made a fool of me
Took away all I hold dear
You pretended to feel
But all you did was exploit my fears
And in the end
You turned your back and walked away
I don't know what I expected
It wasn't meant to be any other way
You twisted my heart
Left it broken and torn
And instead of moving on
I sit and I mourn |
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Love |
She searched the moon and the stars above
Looking for this thing called love
She remembered the words her mother preached
Love was something rarely within your reach
She said love is wonderous for sure
And something that is completely pure
So she searched for this enigma day and night
But couldn't quite get it within her sight
She began to think that love was nothing more than an illusion
Those cold lonely nights trapped in her delusions
But low and behold she finally captured what she sought
It crashed into her life and what madness it brought
It brought happiness, joy, sadness and pain
She knew that she would never be the same
She thought back on her mothers words and they came so clearly
One day you'll find it, so treat it dearly
She turned in her bed and glanced at her love
The she turned her eyes heavenward and thanked God above
For the love she found was something to cherish
And she would hold it close until the day she perished |
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Forbidden Love |
You said it was impossible, that we could never be
But I loved you so much, it hurt me to breathe
The pain was intense, it went straight to my soul
I tried desperately to fight it but it took it’s toll
Our love was forbidden, completely unaccepted
So you shunned your feelings, left me alone and neglected
Why wouldn’t you stand up like a man and fight for our love
I know you felt it, it was there in your touch
It was there in your kiss, the night your heart took control
But it was over too soon, you walked away and left me alone
Alone with the knowledge that your love was real
Hidden under the surface, you were just too afraid to feel
Day after day I lived my life in sorrow
Praying you’d wake up so we could share our tomorrow’s
But sadly you didn’t, you never stood your ground
You let them keep us apart and it’s too late for us now
I’ve moved on with my life and found someone new
But the sad fact of the matter is my love for him is untrue
Because there’s a part of my heart that is forever your’s
I want to love him the way I loved you, I want a love that’s pure
But I can’t seem to purge you, this love is too deep
It haunts me at night, it robs my sleep
I guess this is my cross to bare for loving you
I will never find happiness or a love that’s true
I wish you no harm or any ill will
But I need you to know the way that I feel
I still see you too often and it tears me up inside
But I’ll stay true to myself, I have too much pride
Just know that I love you, you have my heart
It’s always been your’s, right from the start |
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Giving Up The Fight |
I'm half of a whole
This ache goes straight to the bone
I'm completely lost and alone
Desperately trying to find my way home
This life's just too damn hard
My heart is covered in scars
My soul has taken it's toll
My life's slowly spinning out of control
I've been through too much fucked up shit
Tamping down the urge to just quit
I feel like so much has been stole
I just can't take it anymore
I have to find something more
Trudge on and try and explore
The intricacies of this life
Something to guide me through this strife
Something magnificently bright
To relight up my life
Because at the rate that I'm going
I don't know what the hell I'm doing
I feel the urge to just die
Lay down and give up this fight |
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What Happened To
The Spark? |
What the hell happened to you and me?
It seems we've lost so much of who we used to be..
Making love under the stars so wild and so free..
Stealing kisses here and there where no one else could see..
Now we're just two strangers merely passing in the hall..
That spark, that flame, that fire it isn't there at all..
We're no more than ghosts, transparent to each other..
Where the hell is that excitement we had for one another?
Have we really lost it all? Can we ever get it back?
Or are we destined to live our lives behind these phony masks?
Will I ever feel the things that you once made me feel?
Or was it just a trick of light? Too wonderful to be real?
I ask myself these questions as I watch you slip away..
The man I thought I knew so well gets farther and farther away..
Some days I hope we make it, we find all that we've lost..
But then there are those days it isn't worth the cost..
I guess I'll sit in limbo and watch how this plays out..
I know in my heart I still love you on that I have no doubt..
But we can't keep pretending, this is all just a lark..
Because honestly I don't know if I can live without the spark.. |
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Longing |
Have you ever wanted something you just can't have?
It's like a dull ache you want it so bad
It tortures your mind both night and day
You'd do anything to obtain it but you can't find a way
That's how I feel every time I look at you
I long to possess each and every part of you
From your magical eyes to your soft supple lips
From your soft gentle smile to your sweet saucy style
This feeling inside is driving me crazy
My hearts a mess, my minds gone hazy
The things you do to me with one simple look
Leave me all flustered, I think I'm hooked
Your aura surrounds me, it's like a drug
It's potent yet sweet, makes my heart tug
Please put me out of my misery I'm beggin you please
Just give me one chance, I'm down on my knees
I want to feel your arms wrapped around me so tight
Feel your body pressed up against me at night
I'll do anything boy, you know that it's true
I'll lay down my pride just to be with you
So stop this bullshit and don't forsake me
Get your ass over here and just take me
Open your eyes and realize that I'm yours
There's a whole world out there for us to explore... |
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I Longed |
I longed to touch you, feel your body move against mine
To feel your breath on my skin as our bodies entwined
To feel your calloused hands intimately explore my flesh
To feel your nimble fingers slowly dance across my chest
I longed to trail my tongue across your soft salty skin
To have your taste in my mouth would have been the sweetest of sins
I longed to feel your hardness press into me slowly
I longed for you to be the only one to ever truly control me
Control my mind, my body, my heart and my soul
For that I would have given up more than you know
I would have given my life, my heart, my pride
It would have been worth it to know you were mine
I still think about you some nights when I lie in my bed
Regretting all the things that we never said
So if you're out there tonight lost and alone
I hope you realize in my heart you'll always have a home
I will never forget all the things you made me feel
They are locked in my heart permanently sealed |
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Why |
Why can't you accept that I am what I am
I shouldn't have to betray myself and change for any man
Why can't you open your heart and simply love me for me
And realize you can't mold me into who you want me to be
Why can't you open your eyes and take a look and see
That what you're doing is breaking me down and slowly killing me
Sometimes I think you know and simply just don't care
And that I'm the biggest fool of all for fighting to keep you there
Sometimes I wonder will I ever wake up and open up my eyes
And see what's really lying there trapped beneath your disguise
Will I ever be strong enough to rise above you and simply walk away
Or am I destined to live this crazy lie and that's the reason I stay
I don't know what's going to happen, I don't know which path to chose
But I have to do something soon because I have so much too lose
My heart has already suffered and my mind's become bruised
I feel all washed up inside from being emotionally abused
No matter what happens in this crazy life we lead
I hope someday you realize what you so conveniently don't want to see
And that's what I am inside is what I've always been
I haven't changed at all I am still the same woman
The one you fell in love with all those years ago
I'm still right here where I was back then but now I am *alone* |
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