NOTES: Song credits in this fic go to Christina Aguilera for 'I Turn to You' and Aerosmith for 'I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing'...BIG thanks to JennyS, Shorty, Tine, tiff600, thosebleyes, Sky, Gia, amy, Taz and ShadysMandy for all your kind words...you will *never* know *how*much* it means to me...I love you *all*!!
Chapter 14
Brianna sat with her knees drawn up against her stomach, her arms wrapped tightly around her shivering legs and her head bowed solemnly forward to lean against her knees. It was a frigid night in Detroit but then again most nights were. It didn’t matter. She wouldn’t be feeling warm again anytime soon. They’d lost another baby, an innocent life taken from them *again* and it hurt. The throbbing in her heart was a constant dull ache. She was handling it better this time but nothing fully took away the gut wrenching pain that she felt all the way down to her soul. The night air whirled around her and her body trembled. She should go inside. It was too cold to be outside and Libby and Hai needed her but she had to be alone. Her mind was going crazy and she just needed a few minutes to think. Marshall was gone again and his absence was tearing her apart. She needed to hold him. Feel his strong arms wrap around her, his soft flesh press against her. It was insane but she needed him to breath. Without him she felt like she was suffocating...
**When I'm lost...in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way
When I'm scared
Losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there
Pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got**
He was a miracle, *her* miracle. He had pulled her through the first miscarriage with such remarkable strength. He never faltered. Never stumbled. Never fell. He stood strong. For her. For them. Heaven scent was the word that fluttered to the surface every time she thought of this amazing man who had graced her life. She owed him so much more than she could ever give him. It didn’t seem fair. He had everything in the world to offer and she had *nothing* to give in return. The angry wind slapped at her body again but this time she didn’t feel it. She was numb....
**For a shield, from the storm
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength, to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you-ooh**
God, she would be *lost* without him. It was amazing to her that not too long ago she’d fought him. Fought everything he had to offer. Fought everything he wanted to give and now she couldn’t imagine her life without him. He was so loving. So giving. He had accepted Libby without question. Made her his own even before Brianna had given herself over to the love she felt for him. Watching the way her baby lit up every time Marshall walked into the room made her heart soar. She didn’t deserve him, she knew that, but she’d be damned if she’d give him back now...
**When I lose...the will to win
I just reach for you
And I can reach the sky again
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night**
She’d been unfair to him. Completely unfair. Walking around like a zombie. Making love to him halfheartedly. Only showing enough emotion to scrape by. He deserved better than that. He certainly gave her better. She thought that she had nothing to give him but that wasn’t true, not completely. She had *love*. She could give him her love. In reality that was all he really wanted. He’d told her that a thousand times but she’d been too stubborn to listen....
**For a shield, from the storm
For a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength, to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
I turn to you-ooh, yeah ooh**
She wanted to give him a baby. She desperately wanted that but what about what he wanted? She’d been so stupid. She hadn’t shut him out...she’d promised that she’d never do that again and she hadn’t but what she’d done this time was somehow much worse...she’d forsaken his wants, his needs. He’d given her his all, his everything and she’d selfishly taken it without giving back. That had to stop. He deserved her all, her everything. Not just this shell of woman she’d become...
**For the arms to be my shelter
Through all the rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who...I can run to...oh right**
She wanted to feel his child growing inside of her and she knew in her *heart* that he wanted that too but all he really wanted was her love, just her love, unconditionally. Why hadn’t she seen that before? It was right there, written in black and white for the whole world to see. He only wanted love. Pure, true, real love and by God she’d give it to him. No more moping. No more self pity. It was time to wake up and realize exactly what she had before she lost it...
**For a shield from the stormFor a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, yeah yeah
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you...ooh.**
She got up and made her way into the house feeling stronger than she’d felt in her entire life. She wasn’t dead. She was alive. *Blissfully* alive!! She had everything she could ever dream of in the palm of her hand and she was wasting it away. No more she shook her head vigorously. NO MORE. She walked into the living room and looked at her *daughters* and smiled. She wasn’t a wounded bird. She wasn’t broken. He’d made sure of that. She felt giddy and free. All the sadness was edging away and she felt free....
~*~
Marshall pulled up in the driveway and gingerly leaned his head against the steering wheel. He was tired. He was just *so*damn*tired*. He looked up at the house and his heart ached. He knew she was in there and he knew she was hurting. He wanted to stop the hurt but nothing he did seemed to diminish the pain she was feeling. God knows he’d tried. He wanted to erase the misery he saw swim in her eyes every time he looked at her. He wanted to touch her and not have her flinch. He wanted to make love to her again. Truly make love to her but he didn’t know how to bring her back? He desperately wanted her back. He sighed lifting his head from the steering wheel and opening the door. He stood there for a minute thinking about dragging his shit into the house but said fuck it, he was too tired. He quietly made his way into the house. He knew they were all sleeping and he didn’t want to disturb them. He slowly crept up the stairs and pushed open his bedroom door tip toeing in. He stopped short. She always managed to take his breath away. She was without a doubt the most beautifully divine creature he’d ever seen. She looked so peaceful laying there curled up in dreams. Her smooth creamy skin flush from sleep. His fingers itched to touch her. To dance along her petal soft skin...
**I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure**
He walked over to the side of the bed and just stood there staring down at her. He had missed her so much while he was gone. It had killed him to leave her when he knew that she was hurting so deeply. He reached down to touch her, just a light caress but stopped himself. She was sleeping so deeply. So peacefully. She hadn’t slept so sound in...God, he couldn’t even remember the last time. She sighed contentedly in her sleep and his heart stirred. God, he wanted to touch her, taste her...
**I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing**
He stood there for an eternity just watching her sleep. Watching her beautiful eyes flutter in dreams. He wondered what she was dreaming? Was she happy in her dreams? Was he there with her in her dreams? He couldn’t help himself, he had to touch her. He let his fingers lightly trace the soft skin of her cheek. She moaned slightly whispering his name and he smiled...
**Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever**
He turned from the bed to shed his clothes. He stood there in his boxers and pulled the covers back as quietly and softly as he could but he felt her stir. He carefully slid into bed laying his head on the soft pillow and easing the covers up over him. He closed his eyes for a second breathing in her soft, sensual scent. His eyes popped open to look at her and his heart tripped wildly as he stared into the ocean of her eyes.
“Marshall” she whispered and her beautiful face creased as the smile played over her lips.
“I’m sorry baby” he whispered “I didn’t mean to wake you”
“Shhhhh” she smiled covering his lips with her fingers. They laid there staring into each others eyes as the air around them began to sizzle and spark...
**I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time**
“Bria...”
She leaned forward and placed her lips softly over his effectively cutting him off “I love you” she whispered.
He whimpered as her soft, delicate hands reached out to explore the hard planes of his body. “I love you too” he whispered.
He studied her eyes while her hands continued to do wicked things to his body. He leaned in and kissed her tentatively but she was having none of that. She pulled him against her body and the kiss became possessive as she took control. She flipped him over onto his back and broke the kiss so she could crawl up on top of him straddling his lower legs. She grabbed his boxers in her agile fingers and pulled them over his hips, agonizingly slow. Her body slid down his legs as she pulled his boxers off and he moaned. She was naked. Gloriously naked and he felt the blood rush to his head. She was fucking incredible. She tossed his boxers aside and he began to pant as she slid her slick body up over his trailing her tongue over his heated flesh.
“Oh God Bria” he panted “I want you baby”
She just purred contentedly continuing to lick her way up his chest. When she got to his mouth she sucked his bottom lip into hers lightly scraping it with her teeth. His entire body shuddered. She was driving him wild. She released her hold on his lip and settled herself over his throbbing erection. She slowly sunk down taking him into her body slowly, inch by inch. When he was fully ensconced within her heat he reached up grabbing her hips in his hands and began to move her erotically slow. She rolled her hips grinding herself into him as his hardness slid gracefully in and out of her tight, wet heat. She was beginning to lose control as the pleasure built to an unbearable high. She rode him harder, faster biting down on her lip as her body began to shudder. He arched up slamming his pelvis into her sensitive spot and she lost it screaming his name as she tumbled over. Her core clamped down around him like a vise and he too crossed over that line from mere pleasure into unfathomable bliss...Author: AIMEENDREW@aol.com
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