Harder to Breathe
Author's Note: The song in this fic is *Harder To Breathe* by Maroon 5
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**How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending, unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle**
Darkness clouded Marshall’s eyes and completely enfolded him as he advanced on her. His cheek burning from her vicious slap. His heart bruised from her cruel words. He should walk away. Leave this *bitch*. Find someone new but he couldn’t. Their *love* was sick, crazy, beyond comprehension but he just couldn’t get enough of her. The more she hurt him. The more he loved her....
**You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This double vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to funkin' tread the ground that I'm walking on**
She’d cheated again. The thought of another man’s hands on her flesh sent an arrow through his heart and pain tearing through his soul. She was a whore....he hated her.....*Kim*.....just the sound of her name caused him too tense with barely suppressed anger. He took a steadying breath to control the rage that fought to break free as he looked at her on her knees begging. For forgiveness. For redemption. For him. He’d had enough. How many times did he have to pay? He wanted her gone but that sadistic pull that kept them locked together, coming back for more, refused to diminish. It had sentenced him too a life of misery. A life of pain. A life with her....
**When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe**
Marshall felt cold. Locked in. Shut out. He grabbed his pounding skull to stop the banging. So many emotions ran through him. He felt as if his brain was on the brink of shattering. He’d banished Kim but he couldn’t take it. He needed her. He had too have her. She was like an addicting drug. So beautifully toxic. So powerfully potent. He needed his fix. He was having with drawls. It hurt. He couldn’t give her up...NEVER. He had too find her. The room was closing in. He couldn’t breathe. Without her he was suffocating...
**What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to a word I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did**
Marshall ducked narrowly missing the crystal vase that was aimed at his head. Shards of crystal mixed with blood red roses and babies breath flew everywhere. She screamed at him. Pummeling him with angry fists. Torturing him yet again with angry words. She was leaving again. Taking everything he held dear and walking but she’d be back. He knew she would. She couldn’t stay away. She refused too listen too him but she would never find what she craved in another man. Never find this intense love laced with hate that kept them both fed. Sated. Their relationship was one big mind fuck but it was all they knew...
**When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe**
He pounded into her with a force so brutal that it hurt but he was lost. Incensed. She bit him and scratched at him but it only turned him on. Made him move faster. Pound harder. The anger that radiated from both of them could ignite the room but they were beyond caring. Beyond control. They had said cruel things. Done vicious things. Hurt each other beyond repair so many times. They fought. They cried. They tortured. They teased and it always ended like this. Locked inside of each other. Punishing each other with their bodies....
**Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control**
The phone rang and he ran for it lifting it too his ear with trembling fingers. It was her. His heart settled.
“I’m sorry” Kim cried. Hiccupping sobs wracking her body.
“Come home” Marshall whispered. “Just come home.”
“I need you” Kim cried “I need you so much.”
“I’m here” he whispered “I’m always here.”
**Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold**
He paced back and forth as his heart was ripped from his chest. She was gone. She’d let the drugs take over again. Forsaken him, Hailie, her family. Why did she do this to them? Weren’t they enough? He was finished. Through. Done. She could fend for herself. He’d been hurt enough.
**When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe**
He tossed and turned. Restless. Tonight, like every night since she’d left. He thought he could make it without her but it hurt too much. He missed her. He wanted her to come back *home*. He heard the door creak open and jolted up in bed. Peering through the darkness. She was nothing but a shadow in the darkness but he felt her. He would always feel her. No matter how hard he tried. No matter what he did. No matter what she did. They were eternally entwined and he would always need her. Always love her. She crept forward slowly. Afraid. Afraid of what she had done too hurt him. Afraid that maybe this time he wouldn’t forgive her. Afraid that if he didn’t forgive she would die without him. She reached the end of the bed and their eyes locked...
“I Love You” Kim whispered and through the dark he could still see her tears.
“I Love You Too” Marshall whispered back and reached for her pulling her too him and engulfing her in his arms. His world clicked back into place and that dark hole in his heart filled in. He was complete again “Always, Kim, Always.”The End.
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