Hailie's Song
Dedication: This is dedicated to Tine and Ashley (American Sweetheart) because they said that they would love to see this song made into a fic....
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**Yo
I can't sing it
I feel like singin
I wanna fucking sing
Cos I'm happy
Yeah, I'm happy
HaHa
I got my baby back
Yo, check it out**
Marshall sighed as he looked at himself in the mirror. He was nervously fidgeting with the knot in his tie....God I’m getting old he thought to himself with a sad smile......His baby, Hai Hai, was graduating today....His heart painfully expanded with love, bursting open with pride as he thought about his baby girl....He walked across the room and sat on the edge of his bed as his mind took him back......
**Some days I sit, staring out the window
Watchin' this world pass me by
Sometimes I think there’s nothing to live for
I almost break down and cry
Sometimes I think I'm crazy
I'm crazy, oh so crazy
Why am I here, am i just wasting my time?
But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not crazy
It all makes sense when I look into her eyes**
<Flashback....December 25, 1995>
“Kim” Marshall whispered. His nerves on edge as he watched the pain wash across Kim’s beautiful face “Push baby” he pleaded “just a few more...” he begged “that’s it baby” he smiled encouraging her as she bared down again.
She was completely drained but she wouldn’t give up...she pushed again with all her strength and determination. She felt as if her insides were being torn out as their baby girl slid gracefully into the world......
A tear of joy slid down Marshall’s cheek as he watched his *angel* take her first breath....
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“Da Da” she cooed in her sweet baby voice.
“Hai Hai” he smiled down at his angel “Da Da loves you, baby” he whispered placing soft kisses on her chubby cheeks and she gurgled at him reaching up to place a soft baby hand on his cheek. His heart melted and he leaned back to stare into her innocent eyes and nothing else mattered, just her.....his troubles vanished and the whole world was forgotten as he got lost in her eyes.....
**Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders
Everyone's leaning on me
Cos sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
But then she come back to me**
“I hate you” Kim screamed at the top of her lungs as she frantically stuffed her’s and Hailie’s stuff into a bag
“Kim, please....” Marshall pleaded
“You’re a loser Marshall” Kim spat at him “Nothing, you’re nothing” she moved by him shoving him out of her way as she headed for the door “this rap shit ain’t working and I’m tired of living like this” she gestured wildly around the room.
“Kim....” he trailed off chasing after her as she picked up Hailie and headed for the door “I’ll quit rap” he begged “I’ll make a better life for us, I promise”
She turned to him with a look of pure disgust on her face “FUCK YOU, it’s over” she yelled and before he could utter another word she was gone...
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The bottle of vodka hit the wall with a resounding thud and shattered into a million tiny *jagged* pieces....He stared down through a red haze of drunken rage at the photo in his trembling fingers and tore it cleanly in two so that Kim was no longer in the picture...just his Hailie....jagged and torn.....that’s what Marshall’s heart felt like. He dropped to the floor and the pent up tears began to fall....How dare she take my baby from me.....how dare she? He thought wildly....getting up and storming out the front door....he was gonna get her back....he had to get her back....without his Hailie, life just didn’t make sense......
**My baby girl keeps gettin' older
I watch her grow up with pride
People make jokes, cos they don't understand me
They just don’t see my real side**
She helped him tear open another present and that sweet giggle of hers washed over him causing him to involuntarily smile. It was his birthday and his sweet little girl was helping him open his presents. She was growing up too fast he sighed as he looked down at her. Pride shining brightly in the crystal blue of his eyes.....The world had labeled him a bully, a misogynist, a homophobic with a huge chip on his shoulder but they couldn’t see...they wouldn’t see........he was just human...like them.....
**I act like shit, don’t phase me,
Inside it drives me crazy
My insecurities could eat me alive
But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not crazy
It all makes sense when I look into her eyes**
He paced back and forth as he thought about the latest article written about him.......it tore at his insides....... how could they write shit like that?......didn’t he deserve to live his life?.......He put on his best game face and stepped out into the frenzy of fans and media......that cocky, self assured grin plastered on his ruggedly handsome face but it was all for show because in reality his insecurities were eating him from the inside out....Hailie’s face fluttered through his mind and his insecurities vanished ...her image cleansing him.....leaving him whole.....
**Yeah and if I could sing, I'd keep singing this song to my daughter
If I could hit the notes, I'd blow something as long as my father
To show her how I feel about her, how proud I am that I got 'er
God, I’m a daddy, I’m so glad that her mom didn't abort her**
He watched her splashing in the pool and was swept away.....swept back to when he’d found out Kim was pregnant......
“Marsh” Kim whispered staring down at her hands that were fidgeting wildly in her lap “I’m pregnant”
His head snapped up and he stared into her eyes that were welling with unshed tears “Pregnant?”
“Yeah” she whispered and let the tears fall “I’m scared”
He was across the room in an instant. He knelt in front of her and pulled her into his strong arms “Me too” he whispered brokenly “Me too.” His heart was a riot of emotions. Fear. Happiness. Love. Pride. “God, I’m gonna be a daddy” he whispered leaning his forehead against Kim’s....
**Now you probably get this picture from my public persona
That I'm a pistol-packing drug-addict who bags on his momma,
But I wanna just take this time out to be perfectly honestCos there's a lot of shit I keep bottled that hurts deep inside of my soul,
And just know that I grow colder the older grow
This boulder on my shoulder that gets heavy and harder to hold
And this load is like the weight of the world
And I think my neck is breaking should I just give up
Or try to live up to these expectations?**
There was steam coming from his ears as he read the papers that his lawyer had just handed him. “She’s suing me?” he asked in outrage “How dare that bitch think that she deserves a fucking cent from me” he yelled throwing the papers on the floor.
“Marshall” his lawyer tried to reason with him “this is a very serious situation. She is suing you for a LOT of money.”
“Yeah well she won’t get a cent” he spat in rage “that bitch treated me like shit everyday of my life. She was too busy popping pills to raise me and Nate and now she thinks that I owe her something?”
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He laid across his bed staring at the ceiling an icy look radiating from his eyes. Why did they all try and tear him apart like this? He felt like he was being broken and pulled apart by forces beyond his control....was all this shit worth it? The money, the fame? Sometimes he didn’t think so.....he shook his head to clear his muttered mind....he wouldn’t give up....he wouldn’t let them bring him down....he was stronger than that.....he deserved this....he’d fought against the odds to get here and he intended to stay.....
**Now look, I love my daughter more than life in itself,
But I got a wife who's determined to make my life living hell
But I handle it well, given the circumstances I'm dealt
So many chances, man, it's too bad, coulda had someone else
But the years that I've wasted are nothing to the tears that I’ve tasted
So here's what im facin’ 3 felonies, 6 years of probation
I've went to jail for this woman, I've been to bat for this woman
I've taken bats to people's backs, bent over backwards for this woman
Man, I shoulda seen it comin, what’d I stick my penis up in?
Woulda ripped the pre-nump if I'd a seen what she was fuckin**
He sat in the car in front of *Hot Rocks* and pulled out a gun...Gary freaked....begging him to put that shit away.....it wasn’t loaded he joked cocking it and pointing it at Gary......he was praying that it was a lie.....she wasn’t here......he’d almost convinced himself....she loves me.....she wouldn’t do this.....then he saw her and his blood began to boil......she stumbled out of the club on some dudes arm....he was practically holding her up...she was giggling and flirting as she turned to him and placed a sloppy, wet kiss on him...Marshall saw red and bounded from the car....his friend Gary trailing after him trying to stop him from making the biggest mistake of his life....”Motherfucker” he yelled as he pulled out the gun.....
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He stood before the judge as he waited for his sentence to be handed down.....Probation...he heard the judge say and he felt relief wash through him.....he would turn it around....he would quit this shit...the drugs....the drinking...the fighting.....it wasn’t worth it.....he needed to be a daddy to Hailie....he would turn his life around for her.....he would do anything for her......
**But fuck it, it's over, there's no more reason to cry no more
I got my baby, maybe the only lady that I adore, Hailie
So sayonara, try tomorra, nice to know ya
My baby's traveled back to the arms of her rightful owner
And suddenly it seems that my shoulder blades have just shifted
Its like the greatest gift you can get
The weight has been lifted**
His baby was home.....Finally......when the judge had granted him full custody he’d felt like a huge weight had been lifted...everything was going to be all right.....he had his baby back....his little lady....his one true love.......
**Woow!
I told you, I can't sing.
Oh well, I tried
Haley, remember when I said
If you ever need anything, daddy will be right there?
Well guess what, daddy's here.
And I ain't goin nowhere baby
I love you (kiss)**
“Daddy” Hailie called from the open doorway of his bedroom “It’s time” she smiled
“Already” he asked as he stared at her through red rimmed eyes.
“Yeah Dad Already” she said softly going over to place a soft kiss on his cheek.
“I’m not ready” he said as a tear fell and landed on her graduation gown.
She reached down and felt the wetness from his tear and looked up into his sparkling eyes “Me neither daddy” she softly said “me neither”
“I was just reminiscing” he said softly “and I’m not ready too lose my baby”
“You won’t” she whispered as tears of her own began to fall “I’ll always be your baby, ALWAYS.”
He grabbed her in a fierce hug and the past washed away. Leaving only the present and his bright, beautiful child that stood crying in his arms. She’d grown up on him but in his heart he knew that he’d never lose her. He backed up and reached for her hand squeezing tight “Hai Hai” he whispered “I’m so proud of you”......
The End.Email Author: AIMEENDREW@aol.com
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