Don't Wanna Try

Written for Dru's Improv # 12 Marshall's Soundtrack
Inspired by Frankie J Lyrics "Don't Wanna Try "

Summary: Marshall's reflecting on his recent break up with Kim.

(I can't believe you had the nerve to say the things you said)
(They hurt so bad that they ended our relationship)
(I can't believe it ..4 years gone down the drain)

Marshall opened his front door to an empty house. Hailie was spending the night with a friend. He and Kim had had it out one last time before he finally ended it. Her threats were always the same.

"I'll take Hailie away again." She'd say. And he'd reply with words just as harsh, not helping the situation any. This time she had threatened to make his life hell... What else is new? She would take Hailie from him, go public on all things that they'd always been able to keep private. His drugs, along with his mistakes. She knew people would see him differently. She knew she'd ruin his life, and that's what she wanted.

(How I wish things would have happened so differently)
(I try'd to save it so many times but you still couldn't see)
(You kept insistin' and resistin' that you would not fall again)

He was tired, so tired of fighting and making up. He wanted something normal. Something loving. Kim understood *Marshall* though. She was there before he was *known*. He had tried countless times to hold in his anger and resentment toward her, but each and every time, she had refused to see that he was trying. She would say that she hated him. Hated their life together. But, then, why come back? Why does she leave and then tell him she's sorry? More importantly, why does he forgive her?

(And now you're tryin' to tell me that you're sorry)
(And you're tryin' to come back home)
(You're tellin' me u really need me, crying beggin, both knees are on the floor)

He heard the answering Machine turn on. 'Where the hell *is* the damn phone?' He hadn't seen it in days. He walked over to the answering machine just as she started to speak.

"Marshall I'm so sorry... I didn't realize what I was doing. Call me back, baby, please? I need you." Beeep.

And there it was. Another apology. He was tired of apologies. He sighed and erased the message, heading upstairs to bed.

(But baby I)
(Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, don't wanna try no more)
(You keep insisting, when you know our love is out the door)
(Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, cuz all we do is fight and say the things)
(I hurt you bad, then we both begin to cry)

She had hurt him, she had hurt Hailie, and he had *always* let her back. Not this time. He wouldn't let her do it to him this time. He laid down on the bed and rolled onto her pillow. The scent of *her* hit his nostrils and he began to cry silently. It was a given that he missed her. But he had to be strong. For Hailie's sake and for his own sanity.

(Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, I 'bout just had enough)
(Its been a rough road, baby just let it go)
(Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, don't wanna try no more)
(Tell me, what's the use of holdin' on, when all we do is hurt our love)

He had always known that their love was different. Always told her that, when she asked why their relationship wasn't like eveyone else's. He had no idea, then, how much he loved her. He was just a kid. But as life changed, so did they. Every day he loved her more and more, but he found it hard to show her and to tell her because of the way their relationship had become.

(You and I had many conversations on the telephone)
(Talks about one day we having a place of our own)
(Wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table)
(But all of that just seems so far away from me )
(Had to wake up and face reality)
(It all just seemed to good to be true, after all you've put me through)

It's amazing. All his life he wanted to provide for her, wanted to take care of her. And now that he can, she tells him that it's not what she *wants*. What the hell does that mean? He told her that it would be hard, that she wouldn't see him all that often. She told him that she would be fine. She lied. She needed him. And she was *afraid* to tell him. And so they fought, and fell apart, yet again.

(And now you're tryin' to tell me that you're sorry)
(And you're tryin' to come back home)
(You're tellin' me u really need me, crying beggin, both knees are on the floor)

So this is the end. He's done. It's over. She'll never threaten him again.
Never cry on his shoulder, never kiss him goodnight.

Ahhh... Who the hell is he kidding? She'll be back in a week.

(Don't wanna try, dont wanna try, dont wanna try no more)
(You keep insisting when you know our love is out the door)
(Don't wanna try, dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight, and say the things)
(I hurt u bad, then we both begin to cry)
(Dont wanna try, don't wanna try, I bout just had enough)
(Its been a rough road, baby just let it go)
(Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, don't wanna try no more)
(Tell me what's the use of holdin' on, when all we do is hurt our love)

The End

Author: Dbabygirl82@yahoo.com

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